Your smile. (;

Actually I've been told/asked a lot of times..

Why am I always smiling.. Why do I look cheerful all the time? Hahah sometimes I don't even realize that.

I didn't know it was first impression I gave to everyone but...

When someone is able to brighten up your day with just a smile, why not you do the same to the others? ;)

Smile is such an amazing tool! Agree? :D

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Life has been good babes! :D

Meet my batch mates!

One incident.

So the incident was. I lost my file... with my maths & chem notes and coursebook inside. My notebook. My assignment notes. And most important of all, the Strathclyde email account with username and password. This is quite a troublesome matter cuz IMU don't have a copy of it. It's private and confidential. And worst of all, I never try to log in yet... even though our program coordinator asked us to do so immediately after receiving the username and password. So I cannot seek help from my program coordinator or else I'm just gonna get scolded like mad haha. So I refer my problem to the Academic Service. The outcome is, I have to contact the person in charge in University of Strathclyde myself to get back my account info, if possible :-( I sent email to the them and they doubted if I'm a registered student of Strathclyde or else I have to contact another person from Admission Department of Strathclyde. Ahhhhh really needed help. =_____=

Then I got nagged by mum.. 二十岁了东西去到哪里就放在哪里。。blah blah blah. I'm still so forgetful... right. 

Then I went to the lost and found office with darling. Thank you darling who made me feel so much better when she came over. Fortunately, I found 1/3 of my stuff.. the file wasn't there. And the rest was gone. Of course my password slip wasn't there too.

They asked me why am I so down because of the lost file.. Just try to think how'd you feel when you lost the notes which you spent so many weeks to do... Anyhow, not a big deal. :D

Kay. Closed topic. Here's some photos.. life in uni ;)

Tutti with girls on Monday! 20% off for IMU-ians yo :D

Oh Mary ;) She treated us the fro-yo actually. Just a random treat.. 

So sweet of her right?! ;)

Glad to have her in our gang too cuz I can be so crazy with her *wink wink* ;)

HAHA I always call her a kid. Cuz she always laughs at my super cold jokes..

Enjoy making her laugh tho :P

I asked her to take photo for me & HJ..

End up I found this in my camera album =_=

Coincidental lace top ^^

Handsome no?! ^_^

So I went to the table tennis AGM meeting and practice yesterday.

How to describe the feeling when I get to play table tennis again.. 

So so good. Thank you seniors for the heart-warming welcome! :)

有些事，你知道它对自己没什么意义，就别看得太重。

因为你越在乎，你就会丧失自我，忘了你自己的原则。

二十岁了，对自己说过的事，真的不想只是说说而已。

答应自己要做的事就要做到。如果我要怪别人为什么没有实行对我的承诺，我要先怪自己为什么承诺自己要做到的却没做到。

还有，我们真的不小了哈哈。在步入二十五岁轻熟女阶段前，想做什么就做吧。

别因为太小的事而糟蹋自己的心情，更别因为讨厌或生气别人而让自己变得邪恶。

别白白浪费现在这么青春散发的时刻。哈哈哈！

让每一天都过得开开心心吧姐妹们：）

很多人不需要说再见，因为只是路过。也许以往是我们给彼此最好的纪念。

真心祝福，平安快乐就好。

继续加油！

Reflection 2

Such a dramatic day. But I think today was good, even though the math test ruined my mood a little.
I should be thankful I got half of the questions correct ey? I just crammed 6 chapters into my brain within one week, all of which are something completely new to me. Girl, good job! :'>

Once again thank you to my awesome tutors, HongJia & Brandon. 我的坚持是因为你们毫不吝啬地付出。感恩在最难捱的时候得到帮助，我知道自己选择的路，再难走也要继续走，往前走。可命运好像就这样，总在你快崩溃，快放弃的时候，让某些人来协助你，指引你到对的方向，可你有没有毅力走到前方爬到顶端，就要看自己的造化。也许，确定了目标才有毅力走下去吧。对，对于不怎么认识我的，也许我看起来很脆弱，看起来禁不起挑战，看起来撑不下去就只会哭，可我每次告诉自己，哭了发泄了，就好了。难过了，就让它过。不要一直摆在嘴边说我不能我不能。I remember this quote, which I told R, Don't give up when you still have something to give, because nothing is really over, until the moment you stop trying. I told him this because he used to be a weak person, giving up when things didn't go fine for him. Well, I think he is quite impressed by this quote, to say the least. So am I. 这是我想要的，所以我坚持。

我觉得，人长越大，对越多事情，开始看开，看得很开。这是步入二十岁的迹象么？
开始把名人说的名句金言听进去了，也实行了。

你知道么？每次心情不好时，我就会在日记本写下不开心的事。翻开日记本，总会有一张memo掉出来，写着 “如果有人对你忽冷忽热，请转身离开。” 时时刻刻，我都提醒着自己，二十岁了，绝不会再卑微地委曲求全。Hello, 全世界只有你一个男的啊？=P

Rest and reflect

I'm not sure if it's good or not, but I think I'm so attached to my mum that I always miss her after a long day out. Every time when I get home from uni, being physically and mentally exhausted, I will hug her tightly. Then I'd feel so much better. She doesn't really know how to comfort me by words. Basically she gives me the same reply every time I tell her I'm very stressed out. Haha. Like. 

"Don't get so stressed out la." ... 

"Don't study so hard la bi.." ... 

*When I keep pressing the calculator for half an hour*
"You cannot do ah? o.O"
Me: *poker face* 

I think that's all. She doesn't want me to study so hard cuz she always comes across some articles about stress-related suicide and she is quite worried about her daughter...hahahah but mama, life is too short for me to commit suicide :P 

Recently I've been spending more and more time alone. Like chillaxing at a cafe. Studying at library. Driving out alone. Hmmm :-) As I spend more time doing stuff alone, I find myself getting more and more comfortable with it. Sometimes life gets too hectic, we tend to lose sight of the little things that matter. It's the time when I'm being alone, I think of all the little things that get left behind. Like I may forget to say thank you to my mom who prepares breakfast for me every morning. I may also forget how lonely my dog is to stay home alone all day long while me spending time outside studying or having fun. I may also forget how loving my dad is, who tries to talk to me to make me feel better but sometimes I'm being indifferent to him just because I'm too stressed out. Or I may forget how caring my friends are, to ask me out for a meal or drink cuz they worried I push myself too hard. I also forget to skype with my sister who's at overseas now just because I'm too busy with my own stuff.. and I might forget the little promises that I've made to other people or.. forget to care about the people that I've hurt in the past. I might also complain on bad days, zoom in the petty little things, keep holding on the grudges and hates, and then make life gets so tough for myself. 

Then I came across another article. About 10 things we should remind ourselves on daily basis. One of 'em impressed me.

"You don’t have to know all the answers. No one ever has life all figured out. We are always learning and growing. Life itself is a mystery and it’s okay to feel clueless sometimes." 

Sometimes we are too stubborn to figure out the answer. Try so hard to get things clarified. In the end, do we feel any better?

Time for a reflection. =)

I can be a bit braver.

Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional. -M. Kathleen Casey.

And when you've made up your mind, walk away and never look back. :-)

:)

星期六，美好的一天。

在图书馆上完数学课后，和黄小姐去聊天吃冰 =3

好像很久没和姐妹们这样出来聊天聚一聚，大家都好忙，有时候真的很珍惜这样的时光。

我的数学老师。。。鸿嘉；）

星期六 特地到图书馆。。教我数学。

当然她也在那复习自己的功课。

我没有开口问她是不是特地到学校来教我的。

只是想知道，我是修了几世的福，才遇到这样真心的好朋友。

当然还有这个小家伙，虽然她没有教我，可是只要有困难，她做到的，都不会拒绝。

不是她不会教，而是。。。

教人数学，可是需要某个程度的耐心啊！

看她给我精神上的支持；D

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只有在很失落的时候，我才会开口问妈妈，妈，可不可以请我吃tutti frutti？

妈妈会看看我，没过问什么。拿起车钥匙，然后说。

“走啦走啦快点。”

:')

无聊的时候，会压在它身上和它撒娇。

它就给我这个样子。

谢啦cutie pie <3 p="">

那天，我在图书馆读书。 

看着手表四点半，想回家了。

可外面有打雷声。不想堵在traffic jam，所以我赶紧收拾东西，借了一本书，匆忙地走去hilltop拿车。

走到大门才看见，已经下起毛毛雨了。

想回去图书馆，可我一手拿着厚厚的书，另一只手背着包包，拿着文件和ipad，又不想回头了。

决定冒着雨走到hilltop。

每次去拿车的路途，都要经过很长很长的一个阶梯。

真的很长。

这是一半的路程吧。还有另一半。

拿着很重很重的东西爬上去。

每次让我感觉很沮丧 T_T

还下雨了，每次下雨的时候，这个阶梯会变成瀑布。

凭空想象一下。

然后自己一个人做这一切，让我感觉这条路很难走。

因为全部压力，心事，心酸，全部自己扛。

可是每往上踩一步，都让我觉得只要我再坚持一点点，我就到了。

然后

我就到了。。。

Perfect cover;) Current addiction.

Because everything takes time.

And good things come to those who wait. :-)

Me, me and me.

Life hasn't been good lately..

Struggles..

Mummy has been asking me to change course.

I know Pharmacy isn't my first choice.

I know mummy and daddy are worried about me. Dad even scolded me when he saw me studying till late night. He came into my room, blah blah blah, helped me to keep my books and switched off the lights! Nawwww :-(

Conversation between cutie mummy and I.

" 如果真的读到不开心的话，去读你喜欢的。"

“其实不是说读不到，只是不能适应没以前那么好。”

“做么读到酱辛苦，不要做最好那个，放轻松一点，如果真的不想读了就跟爸爸讲，现在才刚开始罢了不会浪费太多钱。”

The chances are, if I give up on i am you right now, I can probably further my studies in Japan, like what I've planned three years ago. You know how much passion I have for Japanese language. Japan. Japan. Japan. Sometimes I'm really grateful to have such supportive parents, who never ever give me stress on my studies :')

Sigh, so much has changed. Hasn't it? But I'm not going to give up this easily, no. If life was always easy, then we would be robbed of the lessons that help us to live better and better and better. Right?

Lovely friends I have in i am you ;)

The cutie Jas;)

Oh in the clinical unit :)

I have no idea how could we have so much fun in such a small clinical room hahaha;)

Such a coincidence! Mary and I ;) oh ignore mai elephant leggss.

And the loveliest sister, who tries to help me out, in every way :*

Sometimes I wonder if things has changed, but I want things to keep going on;)

Always keep the faith yo ♥