Be fit!

If you do not go after what you want, you'll never have it. It's never too late to hit the gym! ;D gonna make workout one of my daily routines!

Feeling healthy :3 thank you my favourite partner in crime <3

They don't know what had happened, so they judge. I believe I should feel it with my heart.
All is well :)

Didn't know reading could calm myself down.. and I realize I do love reading all the while, just that I didn't make time for myself to read.

Ahh I miss those days where I can just have a cup of coffee and read books that I love in Kinokuniya.

;-)

It's not an emo post, trust me.

It's sad that we know we are into each other and we know we're both looking for a long term relationship but I'm not completely comfortable with him and it's sad that sometimes I smile or laugh as loud as I can so that I need not to answer anything cuz silence seems to be the best answer. It's also sad to say that sometimes I just burst into tears cuz I've been keeping everything to myself for too long and it's sad that I'm just too chicken to speak for myself it's sad that I don't feel needed I can't feel the affection but I don't complain I don't ask for it it's also sad to say that he's not the one i'm looking for a long term relationship, but I don't feel like giving up yet.

The moment I left ken's car, I said thanks to him for the ride. Then I walked across the road without looking back. While walking to basement towards my car, I just broke down in tears, uncontrollably.. Yenyin called me. I told her, there's nothing goes wrong, I just feel like crying, I just wanna cry. She said no, everything doesn't look fine at all...

How should I even explain this?

No I really can't tell..
There're too many questions in my mind. But I never want to know all the answers. Don't need to..

I'm not used to this kind of relationship, where I'm not really opening up myself. Something that makes me feel so uncomfortable. But I never want to bring this up, I do not want drama. I don't want.

So sick of feeling tired.

In fact, there're a lot of things in life to be happy about.
There're a lot more.

Recently, I find that I don't enjoy play ping pong anymore :( I don't enjoy the training, I find it boring. I go for the sake of training. So sad. I used to enjoy what I'm doing. Maybe it's true that as time goes by, things do change. So does passion? Haih. But I enjoy cheerleading, like a lot.

I ask myself, what do I wanna achieve within 6 months. I wanna do level 5 stunts, I wanna do back hand spring. I wanna be slimmer. I wanna spend my time more productively. I wanna be a better person. ^_^

So fighting! :)

A flower needs time to grow, and good care to become beautiful and strong. So do women.

My second trip without parents lol

Ohai~~ finally I'm back to update about my sem3 holidays cuz I think it was a well-spent one! :3

Yeap so I went to Labuan on Valentine's day. Initially he and his brother asked me whether I want to follow them to Labuan for their eldest bro's wedding or not. I rejected without second thought cuz I said my dad wouldn't allow me to go. Then his brother said, "if you couldn't get ur dad ur dad's permission i'll talk to ur dad, and if I can't persuade ur dad, my mom will talk to him!" I was like omg u guys want me to go that badly .__. so in the end, I successfully persuaded my dad to let me go.

It was supposed to be a lovely morning flight.

But too bad four of us were being seated at different place cuz he forget to book a seat :/

Ok la to be honest I was a bit upset cuz I was all alone and abit scared lah. Duhh.

It is a very peaceful island. Life there is so carefree that the average driving speed of the drivers there are like 50-60km/h. All the while the only thing on my mind was "why they drive so slow why they drive so slow why they drive so slow" hahahaha. The pic above was taken in front of a lake nearby his house!

Me: Eh let's take a photo!!

Him: I take for you lah

Me: No, together

Him: *poker face*

Quite cute ah, I rarely find big dogs cute. HEHE

This is his brother's girlfie! A super friendly girl, we talk alot since the first time we met!;)

The hairdo to the wedding dinner! All by myself;) My hair colour was too dark to spot the braids in the pic, so I need to use filter :/

Not much photos on that night but this is one of my favourites :3

I love beach and sand. :)

I love candid shots too;)

SUPER DELIGHTED TO SEE JAPANESE WORDS!!!! :3 YES  ME AND MY OBSESSION WITH JAPAN AGAIN ;D

Another favourite shot of us hehe:)

Our videos of throwing the stones haha. Those moments that became memories. :)

Guess that's all about this trip hahaha ready for the next?

Awh now I'm lazy to update about the penang trip. It was way awesome-er than labuan trip! 

HAHA stay tuned yo :D

My life, my decision

Why so suddenly? Simply because I've always wanted to achieve something better in cheerleading :>
It's like. The feeling comes back. The feeling I've had when I first started to learn Japanese. Looking for proper language centre.. call them to know about the details.. travel to bukit bintang on my own despite my super poor sense of direction. Cried on the street cuz I couldn't find the language centre on the first day of class. And I was already late for class.

Cheerleading brought me such passionate feeling too.

Everything looks easy. But in fact, I feel like crying after the first class :'<

They are really hardcore cheerleaders and keep trying all over again, until you get the stunt done nicely.

I know that's what I want. Such commitment and passion, is what I'm looking for.

Sem 4 is starting very very soon. Promised myself to have better time management or else I can die in imu.

My life is going to change! And I'm so happy. Happy that the coach sees the potential in me and trying to seek 'em out. That's what he told me last night. :')

It's just the beginning. ;)

Special thanks to Sierr, who made time for me, accompanied me to the training centre, sat there doing nothing but recording my progression, feeding the mosquitoes there, and drove me home cuz I was really exhausted.

Couldn't tell how grateful I am to have such sister in my life. :') 

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