There was one night, I was being asked about a very sensitive question. "What is the biggest personal changes you have ever made?" The first thought in my mind is, how I pull myself up from being morally degenerating during form2... Speaking of this, let's way back to four years ago.
During form2, what kind of person was I? Depraved, played truant occasionally, being irrespectful to the teachers, broke the rules, being controlled by self-ego... I mingled with bad friends, stayed overnight at friend's house w/out parents' permission (which is a big NO-NO to my dad). For all the time my mom was worried that I might get tempted into doing vices, and of course she was being conservative, afraid that I might become the victim mentioned in newspaper, which was getting pregnant. Okay I gave her this particular face =.= I hate it every time she mentioned about pregnancy because it just showed how much she doubt on me. She tried to talk to me but I replied her with rude words. She heard something bad about me from other parents and asked me about it. "Don't talk to me if you'd rather believe the outsiders. Stop talking." Yes I throw this sentence to mama. I could see the disappointed look in her eyes but I just didn't give a shit about it. Yes I was THIS REBELLIOUS. I wonder how hurt she was to hear this.
My mom talked to me, my sis talked to me, but I didn't want to listen to them. I hated my family. Until the day where I get caught by dad for ponteng sekolah.... dad told me how disappointed he was, on the phone. At that moment, I wanna leave this home badly. I wanna be isolated. I actually got no gut to face my family. Ashamed of what I have done. But dad didn't scold me face-to-face the next day after the incident, he didn't question about it, never mentioned.... Just treat me better instead.
And I can't really remember why I resolved to turn over a new leaf. I broke up with samseng boyfriend, started to pay attention in class, began to study hard, attended tuition classes to cope with studies... I didn't know I could make such changes. But I never regretted for what I have done in the past. The experiences accrued bring me wisdom instead. And I'm able to speak the truth fearlessly now because I am no longer depraved. :D
And it's the tenacity that makes me who I am today.
Mama and papa are proud of the Heng Zhi Sam today. ^^
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Saturday, October 13, 2012
We never have a proper outing since May, so both of us were very much looking forward to meet each other. So we had a theme that day! That is, disguising as tourists hahahah. She wanna dress up like a Thai chick and of course I am a Japanese-wanna-be. K, I think we failed. But we had fun grabbing people's attention. XD
Towards Gyaru Make-up! ♡
My hair is getting longer and I'm so happy! \(-_^)/
Our eyes' make :P
She made me a card. Not birthday card. Just....something about friendship. <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">
Tear up a little when she handed this to me ;')
Our selca pic! ♡ Used to have tonnes of 'em in our phones...
That's all about it! Wait for my next post ok! ^_^
Friday, October 12, 2012
Ibaraki High School B&S Program
I used to be so active in blogging! I need to blog more!! Too much happenings in these two months. So let's talk about some interesting one. My tour guiding job maybe? ;)
I took up a tour guide job for Japanese students last week. This was my second time joining this program. My first time was during last year March, can check out old photos at fb album, the students were from Osaka, Japan. This year, we had another bunch of students from Ibaraki, Japan. It's quite a big city next to Tokyo. And again, I got an all-male-group again! But it turned out to be a very very happy and joyful day with them ;) Maybe it's because that my Japanese proficiency got improved, I'm able to talk more with them, so yeah we break the ice very easily! :)
So basically, my tour guiding job wasn't tough, but for me, kind of got no sense of direction, was a little challenging if you want me to bring a group of people myself. Soo I wasn't alone while tour guiding, I got allocated with another buddy bringing another group of students and walked together around KL city.
We had suggested itinerary to follow, but being able to communicate with the students, we changed some of the destinations. So we went from Klcc, to central market, china town, then bukit bintang streets and back to Klcc again. On that day itself only I found out that some of the tour guides can't speak or understand Japanese at all. And they were so delightful to find out that I can speak. So I become a translator! You know what, I felt really really touched that the Japanese students could understand what I was trying to say. And I understood their replies too T____T All the effort I put in these three years is just worth it. This satisfying feeling is a whole lot better than the feeling of getting straight A's in exam whatsoever. T____T
Every time when something goes well and smooth, I tell myself it's my luck. And deep from the bottom of my heart, I'm so grateful of it. My bunch of students were so friendly and kind to me, they listened to my suggestions and agreed with anything I planned for them. They wanna buy something for me, apparel or souvenirs, but as I have seen all these Malaysia stuffs for more than hundred times, so I told them its okay haha :P At the end of the day, I wrote them postcards and dropped some messages for them! Some of them who have fb have added me as friends, while some contact me via LINE, and one of them send me email too! We are still chatting until today! I'm so happy!!! ^___^ I miss them lots!
I took up a tour guide job for Japanese students last week. This was my second time joining this program. My first time was during last year March, can check out old photos at fb album, the students were from Osaka, Japan. This year, we had another bunch of students from Ibaraki, Japan. It's quite a big city next to Tokyo. And again, I got an all-male-group again! But it turned out to be a very very happy and joyful day with them ;) Maybe it's because that my Japanese proficiency got improved, I'm able to talk more with them, so yeah we break the ice very easily! :)
So basically, my tour guiding job wasn't tough, but for me, kind of got no sense of direction, was a little challenging if you want me to bring a group of people myself. Soo I wasn't alone while tour guiding, I got allocated with another buddy bringing another group of students and walked together around KL city.
We had suggested itinerary to follow, but being able to communicate with the students, we changed some of the destinations. So we went from Klcc, to central market, china town, then bukit bintang streets and back to Klcc again. On that day itself only I found out that some of the tour guides can't speak or understand Japanese at all. And they were so delightful to find out that I can speak. So I become a translator! You know what, I felt really really touched that the Japanese students could understand what I was trying to say. And I understood their replies too T____T All the effort I put in these three years is just worth it. This satisfying feeling is a whole lot better than the feeling of getting straight A's in exam whatsoever. T____T
Every time when something goes well and smooth, I tell myself it's my luck. And deep from the bottom of my heart, I'm so grateful of it. My bunch of students were so friendly and kind to me, they listened to my suggestions and agreed with anything I planned for them. They wanna buy something for me, apparel or souvenirs, but as I have seen all these Malaysia stuffs for more than hundred times, so I told them its okay haha :P At the end of the day, I wrote them postcards and dropped some messages for them! Some of them who have fb have added me as friends, while some contact me via LINE, and one of them send me email too! We are still chatting until today! I'm so happy!!! ^___^ I miss them lots!
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